This point in my life is pretty weird. I feel way too old for... everything. That is, I feel way older than most of the kids in all of my classes at school; I am way older than all of the youth at church. I just feel like it's time to move on, but not necessarily by choice. I would love to be a teenager forever. But I think I just grew up a little bit more than I would have liked on accident and now I'm just stuck in limbo.
But I have to wonder, will I ever miss this? There will always be cliques. I will always think people are annoying. I will never fit in with everyone. I wish I could just accept the truths about life!
Here's to the quintessential high school experience. Here's to the crazy weekends that you will remember for years, staying up way too late and having a great time, every time, all the time. Here's to having that huge group of friends that you know you can always find someone to hang out with. Here's to always having a good time with people you love. Here's to not having a lame job with crappy pay and crappy hours. Here's to enjoying the little time you have left in high school. Here's to enjoying the people with which you are somewhat forced to spend that time with. Here's to not wanting to leave it, and here's to missing it before you even leave. Here's to the quintessential high school experience.
Somehow, the opposite of all of those statements is true for me. What I feel is the "quintessential high school experience" just happens to be exactly what my life is not. And in reality, I'm sure things are better than I'm making it out to be. There are, of course, good things about my life these days. But there are also overwhelming things that I cannot necessarily do anything about, that won't fix themselves in time. In fact, the longer I stay here, the worse they seem to become. Answer: find out what God's will is, and deal with it. Maybe even learn to accept and love it at some point. That's really the only thing to do.
