I'm not making any New Years resolutions this year. Why? 1. Because I rarely ever do. 2. Because when I do, they never ever ever happen. Not even a little bit. So I'm just going to quit with the naivety and be completely unambitious this new year. No "exercise five times a week," or "study two hours every day" for me, because I already know that I don't have that much motivation or self-discipline. I would just not celebrate New Years at all, but it seems that the rest of the world does, and frowns upon those that don't (something about being anti-social...) so I'm kind of forced into it.
For whatever it's worth, I do hope that this year holds a few different things. Considering my unusually sunny outlook on the future lately, I guess I should make this list now rather than later when the future has the potential to look cloudier than it does right now.
1. I hope that I get the job as Nature Director at scout camp this summer.
2. I hope that I will continue to get healthy this year.
3. I hope that I won't get sick so this year. (Yes, two and three are different!)
4. I hope that I'll be able to cope with my class load this semester, and be able to have fun learning.
5. I hope that I will be able to do things that I am proud of this year. I hope that I will be able to continue doing what I love. I hope that I will be able to go on adventures.
6. I hope that my 20th birthday is awesome and full of positive things.
7. I hope that by my 20th birthday, I will feel like I'm supposed/allowed to be twenty.
8. I hope that by my 20th birthday, everyone else will realize that I'm twenty (and not ten.)
9. I hope that I can begin to be the person that I've always wanted to be!
10. I hope that I can appreciate the many blessings that I already have, and appreciate all of the wonderful new things and people and opportunities that will surely come to me this year!
2010, it's been a good one. I'd say it's been a successful year, with quite a few firsts and decisions and surprises along the way. I quit my first job, and learned that I never want to end up in an office. I graduated from high school, and learned that I never want to go back to high school. I went away for the summer, and although I've done that before, I was actually proud of the work that I did this summer. That was a first. I moved away to Utah for college. I bought my own groceries, did all of my own laundry, pumped my own gas, learned to drive in the snow (slush) and did things that you only have to do when you're living on your own. I enjoyed being in Utah. That was sort of a first. I met some really fun people that, in the short time that I had with them, changed me for the better in little but important ways. I got sick, couldn't finish out the semester, and had to come home--and learned that the Lord does whatever He wants! I became an aunt to the prettiest, nicest little baby in the world. I grew up a lot. I learned that I am capable, helpful, comfortable, unique, talented, a positive influence, a fast learner, and a good leader. This year, I began to see my future as a puzzle with all of the pieces coming together, and what a beautiful puzzle I hope it will be. Some of the pieces are still missing, but I'll find them, and I am so excited to see what each piece holds.
